January 23rd, 2004

Subject: moving on up Time: 03:26 pm

yeah- so i have a new livejournal name...

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January 19th, 2004

Current Music: nothing but the silence of my empty room Time: 02:06 am Current Mood: scared

i just woke up from the most horrible dream. it was really terrible, i can't really go into it but i don't know if i'll be able tot get to sleep. i'm in the worst mood ever. i'm so depressed about the silliest stuff. the main one being (of course) my weight. what is it with fucking girls all the time! why do we have to be like this-i feel like i've gained like a hundred pounds. i can't even look at myself in the mirror, i hate it. i need to watch out for myself, i haven't been eating much lately and i know that i don't need to do that- it's unhealthy. i just get into moods, maybe i'm pmsing or something like that but i just feel like my whole life is falling apart. i don't know why i do anything, i don't know know why i'm in school and that really scares me. i have no real idea what i want to do with my life. i don't even like statistics as much as i used to. i'm tired of waiting. i spend my whole life waiting for something, the right man, the right job, the right anything. but i don't feel like any of it has happened and i don't know when it will. what if i spend my whole life waiting for something to happen and i forget to look and see what's happening around me.

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January 18th, 2004

Current Music: "with you" jessica simpson Subject: sleep is good Time: 09:28 am Current Mood: tired

man i'm tired- i went to bed at 5:30 last night- that was 4 hours ago for those doing the math. let's see.... what did i do yesterday. i watched 3 basketballgames... duke, carolina, and state (all winners!!!). sean came over for the state one and we ordered pizza. then we spent the next 7 hours trying to find something to watch. this ended in us watching "blue lagoon". this is actually a kinda neat coming of age story with brooke shields. girls will really like this moving yet judging from sean's reaction i doubt guys will. i think they get frustrated by the fact the brooke is topless in most of the movie, yet her hair is always strateigically placed so you never see boobs. i'm going to eat lunch with heather and amy this afternoon, that should be pretty nice i suppose. i wonder if we can go to a place where i can wear my pajama's. i really don't wanna get up. anyway, i'm going to try to nap a little now.

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January 17th, 2004

Current Music: some S Club 7 song sara is playing Subject: Advice from men to women Time: 01:09 am Current Mood: awake

I'm not a man, but i thought this was quite funny and very true. The floor is considered an acceptable clothing storage location. Never ask me to purchase feminine products. Assume that I will come home with the wrong thing. When watching TV hugging is always fine because I can still see the screen. Kissing should only be done during timeouts and commercials. Questions should also be limited to this period as you stand a much better chance of getting an immediate response. When we are watching your show and I change the channels during a commercial do not hassle me that they are over to change the channel back. I always know when the timing is right. Also, when we are channel surfing do not ask me to go back, there was a good reason why I skipped it. If you need help with the laundry, I am more than willing to carry it from the bedroom to the washer. In my mind this is half the chore and I am now free to return to the couch. If I mention that a male friend of mine is allowed to do something it is not necessary for you to call his wife/girlfriend to discuss it. If you don’t like the way I am driving close your eyes. And I would appreciate it if you would refrain from making that reverse inhaling alarmed noise. I haven’t hit anything yet and if I do it will be your fault. I go clothes shopping to buy, never to look. Just tell me what you want me to wear before I get dressed. And remember that this takes me less than ten minutes no matter what the occasion is. After all I am getting dressed, not getting ready. Don’t ask me if I prefer one outfit to another or if a certain accessory should be worn or not. I consider this a no win situation and would rather just wait for you to get dressed while watching TV. If you want me to put the seat down when I am finished then you should leave the seat up when you are finished. It’s only fair. And stop giving me a hard time about missing the bowl. What do you expect from an organ that has a brain of its own? I will cook anything as long as it is on the BBQ. Yelling to me across the house sounds exactly like stadium crowd background noise to me. I am not ignoring you. more... If you think you are fat, you probably are. Do not ask us. We refuse to answer. Learn to work the toilet seat. If it's up, Put it down. Do not cut your hair. Ever. Long hair is always more attractive than short hair. One of the big reasons guys fear getting married is that married women always cut their hair, and by then, you are stuck with her. Birthdays, Valentines, and Anniversaries are not quests to see if we can find the perfect present yet again! If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an answer you do not want to hear. Sometimes, we are not thinking about you. Live with it. Do not ask us what we are thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as navel lint, the shotgun formation and monster trucks. Sunday = sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be. Shopping is not a sport, and no, we are never going to think of it that way. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine. Really. You have enough clothes. You have too many shoes. Crying is blackmail. Your ex-boyfriend is an idiot. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work. Strong hints do not work. Obvious hints do not work. Just say it! No, we do not know what day it is. We never will. Mark anniversaries on a calendar. Yes, peeing standing up is more difficult. We are bound to miss sometimes. Most guys own three pairs of shoes. What makes you think we'd be any good at choosing which pair, out of thirty, would look good with your dress? Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That is what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor. Foreign films are best left to foreigners. Check your oil. Do not fake it. We would rather be ineffective than deceived. It is neither in your best interest nor ours to take the quiz together. No, it does not matter which quiz. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. All comments become null and void after 7 days. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't expect us to act like soap opera guys. If something we said can be interpreted two ways, and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one. Let us ogle. We are going to look anyway; it is genetic. Don't rub the lamp if you don't want the genie to come out. You can either ask us to do something OR tell us how you want it done-not both. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials. Christopher Columbus did not need directions, and neither do we. Women wearing Wonderbras and low-cut blouses lose their right to complain about having their boobs stared at. More women should wear Wonderbras and low-cut blouses. We like staring at boobs. The relationship is never going to be like it was the first two months we were going out. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like windows default settings. Peach is a fruit, not a color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. If it itches, it will be scratched. Beer is as exciting for us as handbags are for you. If it is OUR house, I do not understand why MY stuff gets thrown in the closet/attic/basement. We are not mind readers and we never will be. Our lack of mind-reading ability is not proof of how little we care about you. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," we will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle. If we hear from an old girlfriend, we will briefly fantasize about having sex with her. But do not worry; the fantasy includes you AND her, together.

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January 15th, 2004

Current Music: none- sara is sleeeeeeping Subject: Duke sucks :-( Time: 11:45 pm Current Mood: good

that was the worst basketball game ever. what's wrong with our school? i guess the players just see bricks so much that that's what they do when it comes to shooting. (ha- i made a joke... hmm.... maybe i should take stand-up off of my list of things to do- haha). today got off to a rough start. i didn't get out of bed till 10:20(my first class is at 11:20) and there was someone in the shower. so i had to get showered, dressed and get to class really fast. calc was great, then i had a break before english. well... at 1pm i realize i left my book in the dorm (class is at 1:30). for those of you who don't know the campus here, state is really long. it takes about 12 min to get from central to west(where my dorm is) and then another 17-20 to get back over to east campus(when english is). well i make it back to the dorm in record time, then i was gettin ready to walk the long walk to east campus, but i saw stephanie waiting for the bus and i was like "duh, stupid me" so i took advantage of the wolfline and got to class with 10 min to spare. i ate dinner tonight with my dad at the Oyster Bar. i love soft shell crab so that was what i had. sara had her first date tonight (my little baby is growing up). i can't believe it, she's only 11. her and logan went to a turrentine basketball game together. i'm just so taken by that. for anyone who knows me they know that i love my sister's more than anything.

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January 14th, 2004

Current Music: none Subject: blabber blabber blabber Time: 11:07 pm Current Mood: perky

wow, this day actually went by kinda fast. sean, you must explain to me how it is that times flies by whenever we're together. i only had 3 classes today (stats, chorus, and organic) so that was nie. megan isn't in my organic anymore (sniff) but it's still a great class. i love the professor, he is awesome. anyway i don't really have anything important to say, but i love applesause and chocolate pudding... yup... that's about it- haha.

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January 13th, 2004

Current Music: Aerosmith Subject: tuesday... Time: 09:30 pm Current Mood: aggravated

so today was another day at nc state... funny how they all kinda melt together. i've been very moody lately. anything sappy sets me off. i've been watching way to many "boy meets girl, they fall in love, one of them does something stupid(usually the boy), girl gets mad and vows she doesn't love him, guy does something very sweet and cheesy, then girl takes him back and they kiss and live hapily ever after..." movies. those things disgust me. and what disgusts me even more is that i continue to watch them and i continue to believe that something like that will happen to me. truth be told if i ever did meet a guy like that i would probaly be so shocked by it all that i would be turned off. i found this out a few years ago actually. for some reason i can't stand it when guys pull out chairs and open doors and buy meals and stuff. it just all seems overdone sometimes. but... when the stuff is genuinely done it is ok and very sweet. so anyway i've been very annoyed by all the "happy little couples" walking around campus. my thinking is completely illogical and i don't know why it's all bugging me. last week i wouldn't have been so surprized by these thoughts, but now i actually have someone (well i guess i've had him for a while but i'm a silly woman and i like comitment). i really care for my boyfriend and i love being with him and talking to him. wow- this is alot of crazy blabber... i swear i had a point when i began this entry. o yeah, lovey dovey stuff- idk... maybe i'm just trying to figure out my own stuff and having to see everyone else just gets me frazzeld. anyway... today was actually a nice day. only had 2 classes so that was nice. but i have tons of organic to learn. tonight i ate dinner with stephanie and we decided to take a special "shopping trip" together. heehee- that gives me something fun to look forward too.

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January 12th, 2004

Current Music: none- i'm attempting to do homework Subject: if i only had one day to live i would make sure it was a monday becuase it would seem to last foreve Time: 09:17 pm Current Mood: happy

wow- today was a really good, really long day! i think this is gonna be an awesome semester! classes today all went great, i just can't wait to really get into everything. first was stats. sean's in my class so that's good (we're actually an official couple now so that is pretty cool :)!) the teacher seems really nice. i don't think the class is going to be too hard. most of it i think i covered in AP (so why didn't i get credit for this class too?). after stats i had an hour break so i went to the library. then it was off to calc 3- megan is in my class- so that is really great. i always work harder and stuff if i have someone in the class i know. the teacher seems good enough i guess, i've heard good things about him so i hope he delivers. at 1:30 i had english and guess who is in my english class!! Stephanie!!! i was really not looking forward to that class (since i hate english) but now that i know someone in it i think it may actulaly turn out ok. after english i go straight to chorus, that class kinda stunk, most people dropped it- including ashley (the only person i really talked to in there). after chorus is organic chem. wow- my teacher is great!!! he seems so cool and megan is in that class too so that just made my day. i have a feeling that class is gonna get really hard though... anyway after organic i met up with sean and we ordered pizza and hung out for a while and now i'm back in the dorm and i have webassigns to do in calc and organic to learn so i guess i'll get to that.

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January 11th, 2004

Current Music: none- watching VH1 Subject: back in raleigh Time: 08:35 pm Current Mood: rushed

it's feels so good to be back! now sean needs to get back casue i wanna order a pizza- haha. i bought 300+ dollars worth of books- and i only bought them for english and organic!!! how crazy is that. i was really looking forward to getting back and all, but i realized that i'm really no tin the mood to start classes tommorrow. especially since i'm sopposed to read the first chapter of my organic book before class tommorrow. i guess i'll get to that sometime. last night i had a prety good time. i ate at blue ribbon with michael, derek alex, brian, andrea, katie, and grayson. then we watched Resevior Dogs at alex's house. that was a good movie, very short, very bloody, but still good. then a few of the people went off to do "other stuff" i dropped off derek and went to alex's and the two of us hung out some... yeah... anyway- i didn't go to church this morning which was nice, i got to sleep in. i need food, i haven't eaten anything since lunch. here's my schedule... </h3> Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday 7:00a   8:00a   9:00a   ST 302 09:10 10:00 ST 302 09:10 10:00 ST 302 09:10 10:00 10:00a   ST 302L 09:50 11:05 11:00a   MA 242 11:20 12:10P MA 242 11:20 12:10P MA 242 11:20 12:10P MA 242 11:20 12:10P MA 242 11:20 12:10P 12:00p   1:00p   ENG 101 01:30P 02:20P ENG 101 01:30P 02:20P ENG 101 01:30P 02:20P ENG 101 01:30P 02:20P 2:00p   MUS 110B 02:35P 03:25P MUS 110B 02:35P 03:25P MUS 110B 02:35P 03:25P 3:00p   4:00p   CH 221 04:05P 05:20P CH 221 04:05P 05:20P CH 221L 03:40P 06:30P 5:00p   6:00p   7:00p   8:00p   9:00p

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January 10th, 2004

Current Music: none Subject: one more day Time: 10:42 am Current Mood: good

wow! break is finally over(basically). i leave tomorrow after church. which means that today i have to spend washing clothes and packing. i was gonna go into raleigh this morning to buy some books and visit sean at work but i don't have time. my father has been bugging the crap out of me about cleaning my grandmother's house. for some reason he doesn't understand the whole - this is my last day i want to relax and see friends- thing. at the moment i am way to lazy to do anything. last night i got into bed around 1:30 or so, then marg and i started talking and we talked till past 3 about a million things. it was great, it was just like i was back in high school and we were having one of our "late night chats". having done that last night i feel pretty good about leaving home once again and going back to school. hopefully this time i'll actually stay there, last semester i came home way to much.

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Current Music: none Subject: new journal!! Time: 01:01 am Current Mood: awake

wow- i have a livejournal now- i think it may be cooler than a blurty, or at least it seems like everyone has livejournals and i wanna be cool when i put comments on other people's so i can have my picture up and everything- yeah!!! heehee- anyway i got back from catherine's party a little while ago. it was alot of fun, i had been missin brandon, dave, and justin. so now i'm off too bed. i hafta wake up early tommorrow and go to raleigh to buy textbooks.

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